A very Scottish day

book launch, social anxiety and stepping out of my comfort zone.

Meeting new people feels like diving into a pool without knowing if there’s water. You jump in, hoping for the best, but end up with a panicked expression that says, “Help, I’m flailing!” I approach introductions with the confidence of a toddler at a new playground. “Hi! I’m Patricia. I like things!” Because nothing says “I’m interesting” quite like vague hobbies, right?

Then there's the classic small talk: “So, what do you do?” I could simply state my job, but where’s the fun in that? Instead, I make it a dramatic affair: “I used to work in public affairs, then I researched the rise of the radical right, and now I’ve done a complete 180—I retrained and am now working as an interior stylist.” It’s always a crowd-pleaser! Of course, the truth is that I’m just someone with social anxiety who tends to overshare.

And let’s not forget the eye contact struggle. I try to balance between “I’m a stalker” and “I’m terrified.” If I make it too intense, I look like I’m trying to stare into their soul; if I keep it too casual, it seems like I’m plotting my escape.

By now, you probably understand that attending events can be a bit of a challenge for me—not because I don’t want to go, but because it feels like I’m wearing a sign that says “I totally belong here,” while inside I’m screaming, “Who let me in?!” I’ve always felt apprehensive about attending events. So when I was invited to Banjo and Alex’s book launch for “A Place in Scotland,” I was cautiously excited. Spending two days with 13 total strangers in a beautiful castle in the north of Scotland might sound thrilling to some, but to me, I was shitting myself!

However, I’m so glad I pushed myself out of my comfort zone because it turned out to be an incredibly magical experience. I met some of the loveliest people and left feeling inspired. It made me realise that you can forge the most special relationships in the most unexpected places.

So, to recap: The fabulous duo, Banjo Beale and Alex Baxter have written an enchanting book titled “A Place in Scotland,” which is a collection of interior spaces showcasing a rejuvenated Scottish vernacular that has emerged over the past twenty years. You might wonder where my invite was; I have the same question, haha! I know I don’t need to say this but I’ll say it anyway - I’M JOKING! My house feels like a building site in contrast to these beauties!

We stayed in the enchanting Kilmartin Castle, a place steeped in rich history and captivating stories. As I approached the magnificent structure, the towering stone walls and intricate architecture immediately transported me back in time.

Each corner of the castle seemed to whisper tales of the past. Our days were filled with delightful adventures, starting with foraging in the surrounding woodlands. Armed with baskets and a sense of curiosity, we explored the lush greenery, uncovering a treasure trove of wild herbs, berries, and mushrooms.

Always with my sidekick Alva, we headed to a dreamy six-course lunch in the beautifully decorated greenhouse. Savoy cabbage with langoustine, croissant terrine with Turnip and delicious Pears a la Plancha finishing up a stunning lunch with the best company. I sat next to Banjo’s incredible husband who’s a cheese maker on the Isle of Mull - one of the nicest people I’ve ever met. You know one of those that you just get on like a house on fire. I didn’t want the conversation (and drinks) to end!

pic: Alex Baxter

Kilmartin is well worth a visit even if you’re not staying in the castle. There’s an amazing walk around the Glen and for food, head 20 minutes down the road to Crinan Hotel for the most delicious seafood.

Until next time my friends. Actually let me give you all the deets as to what next weeks newsletter will be about: the big autumn special. I’ll share all the deets about what I’m watching, wearing, making, sitting and reading. I can’t wait to share it with you.

All my love,

Patricia